On my way to an interview yesterday I found myself a little lost and pulled over to consult the almighty Google. While sitting in a parking lot I spotted a stray dog. This was a business park, not a residential, mind you. It was unusual to see a dog there and the poor animal looked like it had never lived a comfortable life. In fact, it looked a little like a coyote in its body frame but had the short hair and markings of a brindle pit bull.
I decided not to get out of my vehicle to see if I could help the animal; not just because I was worried about being late to an interview but because the dog didn’t look like it was going to be friendly. As I started up my GPS route and got on my way again I looked at the poor, starved creature and wondered if that was somehow a reflection of me?
I have been floundering about for a job for the last nine weeks, sniffing after scraps, hopping into yards I wouldn’t normally go to in search of something to sustain myself. At that moment I lost all mental momentum. I’ve remained positive all this time, projecting my confidence that something would soon turn up but as of that moment I felt the wind knocked from my sails. In that moment, I read the sign before me that said I was a starving dog in search of anything.
I feel as if I have been wasting a lot of energy on job hunting with very little result. If I were putting this much effort into creating and selling my own work, maybe, I could have things off the ground but that is really a scary prospect to me. But so is the reality that I’ve yet to find any decent prospects for employment. Either way, I am currently feeling exhausted, burnt out and frustrated.
But just like reading tarot cards, the outcome doesn’t have to be what is drawn. The signs are there to warn us of the possibilities so that we might alter our path to avoid the fate that could await us. Of course, now I feel like I’m waiting for another sign: one that says “This Way”.
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